Luallen Sucks

04:30 pm - thanks to amanda palmer

life will break you
Category: Blogging

"life will break you.
nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won't either, for solitude will also break you with its yearnings.
you have to love.
you have to feel.
it is the reason you are here on earth.
you are here to risk your heart.
you are here to be swallowed up.
and when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt,
or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree
and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness.
tell yourself that you tasted as many as you could."

- louise erdrich, the painted drum, p. 247

04:17 pm - Green Lantern and why you should buy it

Excuse me while i geek out.

Green Lantern and Green Lantern Corps are the best goddamned titles DC comics is putting out right now.
Close third is Secret Six by Gail Simone.

Green Lantern is written by Geoff Johns and Corps is currently being written by Peter Tomasi though Dave Gibbions wrote the start of this book.


History:

When the universe was created, the first beings that knew of a world outside of their own planet where the Guardians. Their planet is called Oa and is at the dead center of the universe. Being the first beings with great power and tech they decided they owed it to all other beings to help protect them. They split the universe up into sectors and built robots called Manhunters to patrol and protect these sectors. One Manhunter per sector.

The robots screwed up.

They were programed to bring order, some flaw in their programing caused them to think that if they killed everything living, there would be order, the order of the grave sure, but order none the less.
The Manhunters managed to wipe out a near whole sectors worth of life before the Guardians shut them down.

The Guardians decided that living beings should patrol their sectors. Each being a life form from their sector. The Manhunters stayed on doing random tasks for the Guardians, a thing they grew to dislike and rebel against later, but more on that later. The Guardians also decided to remove all emotion from themselves which caused some of the guardians to spilt off from the main group. Including all the females. The Guardians being immortal, the loss of the women didnt really effect their population.

Each living being that the Guardians selected had to be able to overcome great fear. If they could overcome their fears, they could channel their will into a ring that should create solid light contructs based on their thoughts. Think Green Thoughts, thoughts become things.

All rings can:

Create food and Air for their wearer which includes making it warm enough and cold enough for them, full environment for each being.

Create Shields and hard light objects, the strength of both depends on the willpower of the Green Lantern using the ring at the time.

Translate all known forms of speech into something the wearer can understand. This includes access to the Book of Oa knowledge, basically they have universal google on their hands. Ask the ring anything, and it knows it. And if the ring doesnt know it, it means the Book of Oa doesnt know it. The ring can interact with most forms of tech, the rings are the ultimate tech in the universe and knows how most lowerer tech works.

The rings can block out most forms of telepathy from effecting the wearer. Only the most powerful telepaths can break thuru the rings defenses. Again this depends on the will of the wearer. The ring can take mental or verbal commands also.

The ring can not kill without the Guardians enabling lethal force. The ring can summon the wearer back to Oa if the Guardians need them.

Faster that light travel by using hyperspace. this is a form of teleportation, making the ring wearer into a being of light for a short term. Normal flying can break the sound barrier easy, but faster than light travel requires time to compute and plan your course. The Ring does this but it takes time.

Allowing the wearer to pass thuru solid matter

Create the users uniform and badge. The badge is a glowing Green Lantern symbol that floats a few inches above the symbol on the uniform.

Weaknesses:

The color yellow is the color of Fear. A rookie green lantern, one that hasnt earned his or her badge cant use their rings on this color. Once you earn your badge your weakness to yellow removes itself. But fear will weaken the constructs of the corps. Fear can still get you killed.

24 hour Charge limit for the rings. Every 24 hours you have to recharge your ring in a Green Lantern Power Battery or it will not work. It will not allow itself to be removed from your hand even if uncharged and even the Green Lanterns costume begins to fade away once 24 hours has passed.

using the rings also can reduce your power levels. the ring begins to warn you if power is being leached from the ring and once the power level goes below 30%.

There are other corps out there

The Yellow Corps of Fear from the Anti Matter Universe

the Blue Corps of Hope their rings being the most powerful but only in the company of a Green Lantern. Because hope without will is nothing.

the Red Corps of Rage founded by a being that survived the Manhunter's killing a space sector. They vomit red plasma on their victims.

the Indigo tribe of compassion

The Violet Corps of Love founded by the female Guardians.

and the Black Lanterns of death, the total lack of any emotion.

All the lanterns gain power from beings in the universes feelings. Emotion fuels and powers the corps.

Green Lantern Focuses on Hal Jordan and his partender Green Lantern Jon Stewart. Now the Guardians have two lanterns a space sector.

Green Lantern Corps sometimes focuses on Honnor Lanterns Kyle Rayner and Guy Gardener, lanterns of earth that go on missions for the Guardians. Most of the time it spilts focus to any and all Lanterns in various space sectors.

Read Green Lanter and Green Lantern Corps. Seriouslly

02:40 am - i cant believe they are canceling this show

12:28 am - Surb on film

03:19 am

"Wuh duh ma huh tah duh fong kwong duh wai shung"

"Shun-SHENG duh gao-WAHN

Joo ah, nee ming ming jee dao wuh shr bang nee tzwo shr, yo huh bee jao wuh ma fan nuh?

10:54 am - hello perverts

Dear god, throwing up Dr. Pepper Shavings is a great way to start the day. I am ill. Dizzy and weird.

When will i ever Feel Better? I have had all these tests done all these pills taken and i still feel like the inside of an old shoe.

I am tired of throwing up and vomiting blood. I am tired of being in pain. I am tired of living with all this stress and nonsense.

the cats are circling their master, they know something is up with me. Normally i have left and put the dog up by now. I called in today, no way i can work if i cant even keep liquids down.

I have started work again on THE BOOK.
The novel that i have been collecting bits and bobs for for years. the novel that is the great work. I have stolen whole people and they live in my crawl space, waiting for the day that i can unleash them upon the world.

odds are, if your reading this, you too live in the crawl space. i shall have to start the beatings soon, to get them to say what i want them to say.

I dont look forward to the beatings, i look forward to their pain, and their words.

I want to get this out of me i want to get the book started in good faith.

I want to get my shit together and get enough money to go to dragon con, and get my computer fixed.

my throat feels like it is closing up. i taste my own bile in my throat. i want to chase the wind.

the cats are chasing ghosts again.
staring at nothing running after it, acting like the are catching it every once and again.

what is THE BOOK about?

that is the question everyone asks.

it is about a murder. the murder of carla land by the hands of an unknown person. its about perverts and stripers and drug dealers and all manner of darkness.

i have seen hints of the shape of the thing for ten thousand years, but only now is it coming together with gusto.

going to use the live journal to talk about the work, how its going what i am doing.

i am going to throw up again now. ciao.

let me know if you interested in my nonsense in the comments.

03:30 am - never forget june 2009

Never Forget June 09. on CollegeHumor

02:56 pm - Billy Mays no longer here

05:34 pm - betty white defends herself

"All creatures must learn to coexist. That’s why the brown bear and the field mouse can share their lives in harmony. Or course, they can’t mate or the mice would explode.”

-Betty White

08:50 am - Golden Girls

"Rue... Rue is a sweetheart. But Betty White? What a cunt."

-Bea Arthur

02:50 pm - hello lexipro

Come to daddy you wonderful bitch.

Yeah back on the crazy pills. And stomach meds.

I get to swallow cameras in a few weeks. this is going to be awesome.

07:16 pm - waitingwaiting

Waiting for hannah to get get so we can get some dinner.

Its been a good day, cleaned my room and the bathroom. Nolan fell asleep on the living room couch before i could get to that room. Kitchen is to close to couch to clean it. Slept in a bit watched some black books, i am to much like the main character. Far to much.

My cat Wednesday goes in to the vets Monday. Soon she will be fixed and will not be making babies while i am not looking.

I want to grow things, i have had bad luck for the most part, but need to get something growing that the cats can get into and not kill them.

Everyone seems to be having babies and joining armies.

God i am hunger. I have one of my many cats eyeing my lap, he just leaped up here.

I need more money and sanity and love and so many things

But all i have is cats and thats enough.

03:37 am - yeah i have done it, and so have you

words by Neil Gaimen, music by Amanda Palmer

I Google you
late at night when I don’t know what to do
I find photos
you’ve forgotten
you were in
put up by your friends

I Google you
when the day is done and everything is through
I read your journal
that you kept
that month in France
I’ve watched you dance

And I’m pleased your name is practically unique
it’s only you and
a would-be PhD in Chesapeake
who writes papers on
the structure of the sun
I’ve read each one

I know that I
should let you fade
but there’s that box
and there’s your name
somehow it never makes the pain
grow less or fade or disappear
I think that I should save my soul and
I should crawl back in my hole
But it’s too easy just to fold
and type your name again
I fear
I google you
Whenever I’m alone and feeling blue
And each scrap of information
That I gather
says you’ve got somebody new
And it really shouldn’t matter
ought to blow up my computer
but instead….
I google you

09:35 pm - god damn cough

i have a kitty party on the couch, a dog at my feet and about a billion liters of cough syrup in me.

fear my powers of sickness.

i am loopy with either meds or being tired. i dont know which is worse or which will do me in first.

the apartment is cold, its like this mostly when i am the only one here. there is no sam nor nolan here

just my cats, my dog Zelda and the fish.

Just the one fish of gold trying to keep warm swiming up and down and up and down in its little oasis of water on the dry land of humanity.

i want the room to stop spinning, i want to not be broke, i want to Write the Book.

I have thrown away libaries of novels. i have tossed them aside like the garabage they more than likely are.

i just never can tell if anything i write is any good. i like the way sentences come to gether. I like my narative flow, when it comes and isnt being a bitch whore hiding in room of my imagination.

its all coming together now

10:05 pm - what what

I am hoping to god this holds

fucking yes god damn it

04:52 pm - the great hope verus the war monger

and in this corner.....

I am edgey and nervous. forgive the spelling i have been inhaling cleaning fumes.

i have been readying my place in case the time comes.

dear lord i am hoping that we dont have a return of the beast part two with his insane bible thumping side kick who eats polar bears raw.

I HAVE SEEN IT.

I saw her jaw unhinge and hoover up all sorts of endangered animals, she claimed it was gods will. if god didnt want the eet whyd he make them so good she screamed.

i am shaking, i dont know if my liver can handle another republican.

I have rum and whiskey and beer and one lone wine cooler that got lost so i took it home with me cause they are good at somethings.

wine coolers are the underage girl with the fake id of drinking. You underestimate them at your peril.

i have been hitting refresh on cnn and msnbc all day.

i have been called one of those terrorist supporters by my parents.

which is interesting considering they claimed that bush a man they voted for twice mind you was such a horrible president.

that mcain is bush 2 with a nutty stupid as a bag of hammers vp that is in bed with big oil, like for real she has to fuck someone in big oil.

mcain is acting less like a canidate and more like grandpa that really doesnt know what is going on.

sorry grandpa the fundementals of economy is not strong, no obama is not a terrorist not that is not a clever way of saying "oooooh look he aint one of us hokeys"

fuck spelling fuck grammar.

what kind of world are we living in, what kind of world will we be living in tommorrow.

what if karl rove is right and obama is going to win?

what if he is wrong and karl rove still gets to matter a little bit?

11:53 am - going off the grid

hello all

I know i dont post much anymore but i just wanted to let everyone know that i am going to be offline for the next couple off weeks, i need to focus on getting a new job and getting my life together.

the best way to get a hold of me if its somehting vital is matt.luallen@gmail.com.


be seeing you

11:30 am - best daily show ever

12:10 am - And here we go...

"A moment I've been dreading. George brought his n'er-do-well son around this morning and asked me to find the kid a job. Not the political one who lives in Florida; the one who hangs around here all the time looking shiftless. This so-called kid is already almost 40 and has never had a real job. Maybe I'll call Kinsley over at The New Republic and see if they'll hire him as a contributing editor or something. That looks like easy work." [From THE REAGAN DIARIES - entry dated May 17, 1986

Ronnie didnt even like The Beast.

So what do we have here? Russia is invading Georgia, The Beast is pro Georgia which puts in in direct conflict with another member of the G-8, a nice little way to kick start a pre-election war for the War Vet to vet as another reason to vote for the rich old white man party.

We have yet another Dem in the form of Smiler Jon Edwards tripping over his own dick, something which could have turned him into Gary Hart (god bless that poor sob) if he was still running for the big house. It would have ended before it even begun. Four more Years by god Four more years.

I cant really handle that. I cant really handle another depression that the one i have been suffering the past four years. There isnt enough booze in the world for that. There is no hope when we have crazy half monster men calling the shots.

God the bastards dont even know how to lie to us anymore.

They are out there right now plotting and planning a way to make the Rove Dream come true.

You know about the Rove dream right? The dream of a PERMANENT GOP majority.

How is that even the same system that the rest of us think we are living in? Voting means nothing, the party is the thing. Are you one of us or one of THEM?

Dems are self defeating and to smart for their own good. They tend to be unable to keep their personal lives together in any way that middle America can cope with.

People identify with the GOP. They hate the same things. The weak huddled masses longing to breath free?

Who the hell wants those people around? Those different that how mommy and daddy raised them? What kind of abominations are they? The War Vet has all the answers. He was tortured and gave the Viet-Cong no info so he knows that torture doesnt to anything but make us feel better. He has more in common with us normal god fearing folks with his eight homes and millions of dollars his wife makes a year. The wife that he cheated on his other wife with, because he believes that marriage is a special thing that should be protected.

How long lord how long.

The new Dumb is all around us, people not paying attention to the lies and bullshit.

If the War Vet makes it into the big house, we are all doomed.

And no one cares about the Doomed.

09:21 pm - 20 weeks

My god its been 20 weeks since i updated this thing, where has the time gone?

I have been tending to my ever going army of cats. I presently have Cloe, Zoey, Fitz, and Sirus Black.

I have been working at the theater and growing bored with it. I need to get my debts paid off and not make anymore and the theater just isn't helping with that. So it goes.

My writing has suffered thanks to being unable to get the time to devote to it. I need to get this book out of me before it consumes me, or i die before it comes out or whatever talent i had goes dormant.

which all of these things could happen or none could.

the state of alabama is stalking me. they keep sending me letters demanding random papers from my past. eventually they will move on or put me in prison.

But then many good books were written in prison.

Its a double edged sword really.

this summer has been interesting. lots of stuff going on. Interesting summer for movies, Hellboy2, Iron Man and the fantastic Dark Knight.

Hulk wasnt bad, WALL-E was cute and strangers taught us all to put on our damn shoes when monster people are coming.

Oh and you all need to watch the Watchmen trailer on Apple Trailers right now.

and be amazed.